Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Tuesday, September 8th - an Open Door

Hi my friends. Here I am after an unwanted hiatus. I missed you all, and thank you for missing me, and for your concern. I needed to work through last week, looking ahead to Tuesday, September 8th, the day after Labor Day, the long holiday weekend, the end of summer, and hopefully the start of a new and better season. I never thought I’d ever want that Tuesday after Labor Day to hurry up and get here, but this year I sure did, and it’s here.

Last week I floundered – I could not even follow any of your blogs (I’m sure I missed a lot), let alone write mine – it was a bad week.
As you all know I was excited and feeling somewhat relieved at having a 4th interview (at the same company). I was thinking I would finally see that light at the end of the tunnel, but that tunnel was pitch-black. I found out last week I did not get the job – can you believe it (no one else can)? Anyway it knocked me out! 7 months of constant rejection just knocked me out!

I got the call early in the afternoon on Tuesday, after I sent them an email when there was no communication from them for 10 days. We had tickets to go the Phillies game that night. My daughter asked in the beginning of the summer if we’d take her to a game before she went back to school and it was a family event we were really looking forward to. Needless to say I did not want to go and just wanted to jump in a hole and bury myself. I got myself together for her sake and we all went and I’m glad I did because I was able to forget and enjoy. Driving home however, the closer we got to home reality started setting back in and so did my funk.

Thankfully Wednesday we were so busy getting Katie packed and ready to go to school on Thursday that the distraction was a welcome one. Thursday was a very lonesome day which did not help and certainly left a hole in my heart – I am used to her being away and it was not at all like leaving as a freshman, however I still miss her, probably more so because things in my life just seem so wrong. I know she is happy and could not wait to get back.

Funk and all, I got right back on that job-horse and applied to a few more jobs, however being a couple of days before the big Labor Day weekend it was kind of frustrating knowing there would be a longer wait before I hopefully start getting responses, and the ultimate – interviews!

I went to TJ Maxx Sunday and saw a nice jacket at a real bargain price – just the thing I need for interviews. This new jacket will bring me luck. I’m ready!

OK – we’re in a “new season” and this is going to be where I see the light and can actually walk through that new door into the working world and a wonderful new opportunity, right?
I’m feeling good – this has to be right!

P.S. All of this positive energy seems to have sparked my creative energy which has been gone for a while. I've done some stitching but not much. Picked it up yesterday and I'm still going. Most importantly, I have not hooked in months and I hooked for hours last night :-)


kelleysbeads said...

Good luck, Beth! I'm thinking good thoughts for you that the perfect job is just around the corner for you!!!

Angela said...

I am so sorry to hear this. I know how depressing it can be.

I worked at a Kitchen Design Showroom...when it went out of business, I was out of a job for 2 1/2 years. I got to the point that I was applying everywhere.

Finally, at this one clothing store (not in the least bit upscale) I just asked the woman: WHY?

She said I was "over qualified" I begged her to just give me a job! She hired me.

Then, my brother bought the restaurants and thats how I ended up in the dreaded Food Service Industry.

But, at that point, a job was a job.

Hang in there! I know it is a very depressing thing to go through.

Chrissie Grace said...

Hang in there.
It seems like God has different plans for you...
Sometimes that isn't a consolation at all, but you will be led to the "right" job for you:)

Tommye said...

Just keep your eye on that light shining through the crack in the door. I know God is priming you for something wonderful. Keep the faith...and stitch!

Beth Anderson said...

Hi and thanks everyone for your encouragement. It all of you that help keep me going.

Kathy said...

I am a firm believer in "everything happens for a reason"....sometimes that reason is so unclear though. My heart aches for you. It's hard when we take things like this personally and we always do.

I have found such comfort in the writings of Eckhart Tolle. I always wanted to know why things happened and it would eat at me until I couldn't stand it anymore. Reading his books has taught me that it really doesn't matter what happened last year, or last month or last week or yesterday or even 10 minutes ago because we can't change it no matter how hard we try.

He also taught me not to wish for things in the future. All I could think about is retiring. By wishing I could retire I wasn't enjoying today.

Now, I just think about this moment. I don't concern myself with the past and I don't worry about the future. I can't control either.

Take these days Beth and find pleasure in each and every one no matter what you happen to do that day. If you are looking for jobs and applying for jobs and interviewing for jobs....find pleasure in it.

When the time is right, and the right job opens up for you...it will be yours. That job just hasn't found you yet!

lilylovekin said...

I'm so sorry about the job. I to thought after 4 interviews it was going to be yours. I'm glad you have taken some time and nursed your bruised heart. But am especially glad you are back up and facing the world again, you have been missed. Lorrie